GIVEN A CROWN

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Sun, 12 Feb 2012 09:05:47 -0600

DON'T EVER KILL YOURSELF

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 23:44:00 -0600

madddiepaige:

This is the 6 page suicide note I was left to read by my best friend Ian.
One year ago,
On a Monday afternoon. I dropped my best friend Ian off at his house, we were going to go to the mall afterwards and get Chick-fil-la because the school lunches are nasty. So I dropped him off at around 2:30 pm. I went home, changed, fixed my hair and got a text message from Ian, reading, “Hey Mad’s can you come over and help me with something? I really need your help!” So I texted him back, “Bro, I’ll be there in 2 minutes. I’m walking out the door now.” I pulled into his drive way, go out of the car, walked into his house, because I’m like family there. Plus they keep the doors unlocked. Yelled, “Ian, get in we are going shopping!” He always loved the Mean Girl references; I didn’t hear anything back. So I walked into the kitchen, got a bottle of water and walked up stairs, saying, “Ian, if you’re taking a shit like yesterday I will kill you.” I still didn’t hear anything. So I walked down the hallway to his room; and looked in his bathroom. Which was always a mess. It always looked like a tornado went through it. It was completely clean. Not a spot anywhere. I shrugged, not thinking anything of it. I walked to his room, knocked on his door, it wasn’t locked but I still wanted to knock. So I knocked, 4 times. I didn’t hear anything. So I walked in. I opened the door to my best friend of 15 years hanging from his bunk bed. Dangling. Not moving. His room, just like the bathroom. Normally a wreck, now completely clean. At first I didn’t think this could happen so I tired to tickle him to make him move. He didn’t move. At all. I screamed at the top of my lungs and dropped to the floor. I dropped my water bottle on the floor and tears streamed down my face. I wanted to reverse time just by two hours and not let him go home. I didn’t want to be the one that walked in on this. I wondered why me? But there was a reason he chose me to come there. I was his best friend. The only person who knew that he was raped, and beaten by his own father. The only person that knew he cut himself. The only person the knew he was gay. I was the only one that knew he wanted to die. I just never spoke up. On the bottom bunk, I noticed a green envelope and a blue envelope. Both with my name on them. I opened them and began to ball my eyes out. I read the first line, “Madeline Paige, I fucking love you baby girl.” I then called 9-1-1 and then Ian’s dad.

No one knows what I saw. No one knows what I felt. & What I feel every day. What I will feel for the rest of my life.

If you want to sit there and mock me for it; go right ahead. But just know you have a whole other thing coming.

Rest In Peace Ian baby.
I love you.

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Sat, 11 Feb 2012 23:24:11 -0600

I wish I wasn't so ugly.

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 23:23:40 -0600

YOU ARE NOT UGLY

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Sat, 11 Feb 2012 23:23:20 -0600

iwasridingwiththeghost: this is beautiful

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 23:12:43 -0600

iwasridingwiththeghost:

this is beautiful

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Sat, 11 Feb 2012 23:09:00 -0600

Please send love to this lovely girl!

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 23:05:00 -0600

Please send love to this lovely girl!:

Talk her out of suicide

TALK HER OUT OF IT!

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Sat, 11 Feb 2012 23:04:24 -0600

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Sat, 11 Feb 2012 23:04:15 -0600

"FAT" is really the worst thing someone could be? YOU are beautiful

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 22:52:13 -0600

"FAT" is really the worst thing someone could be? YOU are beautiful

If you follow me and want to save a life

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 22:49:46 -0600

IF YOU FOLLOW MEAND WANT TO SAVE A LIFE PLEASE SEND LOVE TO

http://someonehelpmeplease.tumblr.com/

SHE DESERVES IT AND SHE IS AMAZING.

takemehomelovely: The Butterfly Project: 1. When you feel like...

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 22:47:09 -0600

takemehomelovely:

The Butterfly Project:

1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand.
2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better.
3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it off.
4. If you cut before the butterfly is gone, you’ve killed it. If you dont cut, it lives.
5. If you have more than one butterfly, cutting kills all of them.
6. Another person may draw them on you. These butterflies are extra special. Take good care of them.

SUICIDE PREVENTION

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 22:36:37 -0600

please tell http://someonehelpmeplease.tumblr.com/

not to commit suicide, to tell her friend what is going on, and to keep living. I can’t ask questions for another hour.

Suicide

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 21:50:12 -0600

I ran across this blog. http://ivebeensilentlydreaming.tumblr.com/

She said she is going to commit suicide.

Please shower her with love beyond love.

Please.

I don’t know what to do.

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Sat, 11 Feb 2012 21:46:23 -0600

PLEASE DO NOT KILL YOURSELF. YOU ARE WORTH LIFE. EVEN IF YOU...

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 21:20:10 -0600

PLEASE DO NOT KILL YOURSELF. YOU ARE WORTH LIFE. EVEN IF YOU DON’T THINK SO, YOU ARE. PLEASE. GOD LOVES YOU. YOU ARE HERE FOR A REASON. DON’T KILL YOURSELF. PLEASE. JUST KEEP LIVING.

SUICIDE HOTLINE
http://hopeline.com/
1-800-SUICIDE
NEVER GIVE UP.
YOU ARE LOVED.

ossimitsjessie: Yes he will <3

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 21:09:36 -0600

ossimitsjessie:

Yes he will <3